day by day~

Aston's with R.

11:31 PM, Wednesday, July 30, 2008

mood:

ate Aston's Specialities!
was a restaurant we spotted while walking around Cathay the other time.
it was also available at NUS's PGP but i din get to try cos there were toO many pple!

Mine!
Baked potato: Nice, love the melted butter~
Onion Rings: Good! But breaks easily (or at least it's always smashed into pieces by me~)
Prime Ribeye: BloOdy oOOo. tt's cos i chose medium..still chewy but couldn't really make out the beefy taste

Ratings: 7.2/10

Ronald's. Pic taken by him oso. he always like to take super close up pics (& doOdles with the camera for a full 2 mins lOlx.)

Teriyaki Chicken: i love the chicken! but the sauce is toO sweet..more like BBQ sauce chicken.
Lemon Chicken: nah nothing special

Ratings: 7.8/10 because they still taste better than my beef lOlx.

was soO hungry that we ate Macs @ 9+ again!
lOlx.

it was a nice quiet and peaceful night.
all i rmb-ed was we screamed more at each other today & his actual laughter is always out of tune which tickles me to bits. lOlx!

my beloved deck.

12:51 PM,

mood:

it was the 1st time i hated being at the deck.
horribly hot (like heatstroke).
unstable ground.
and walking up and down slopes gives me a headache + my moOd isn't very positive already.

it was more fun surprisingly at level 2 when i told emmey i'm going down there @ 9pm
he said "i noe what's your motive!!! you just dowan to check capsules!" lOlx.
and mohidzan was telling me to go home (jokingly) & saying I have A.P (cos i accidentally slammed the door) cOs the whole time he feels i'm wearing a sad/ tired face.
but i'm so glad to see him prancing round the deck!

i love the chocs.
i ate 3 of them.

at level 2, they already had like 6 pple & i joined in hahas.
the deck had 6 pple toO dots.
we played badminton, basketball & blast music
and idiotic alan was doing irritating stuff (altho sometimes they were really funny)

then irfan said this tall 1.8+m guy looked like me!
OMG. wad a insult.
but i dun mind cos he's quite a metrosexual lOlx.

after shift, yuling and i went on a thieving spree..
behaving like rats (more like she did), ransacking the pantry lOlx!
she actually opened all the cupboards and fridge tsk tsk.

journey home was quite fruitful toO.
had a long chat wif iris..she did point out and gave me some sound advice altho i disagree wif her on some parts.
all in all, i feel like a greenhorn & yes, i still may not know what i really want.

in ALL aspects of my life, i'm just taking things one step at a time.
argh stupid cors. i jus wanna bid for my modules & heave a sigh of relief.

10:18 AM, Tuesday, July 29, 2008

i never know how painful it is to love someone and yet still want to go on.
i was being my immature self all over again...
i am a selfish girl. i am afraid i'm not strong enough to be responsible and care for someone.

i just wish i'm stronger and more open and much more optimistic.
and that my happy little world will not crumble all of a sudden.

i'm saying all these nonsense but i still want to have the courage to love.
cos i know how how painful it is to love someone and yet still want to go on because you love him so.

i realise i never really loved myself.
i perhaps had only been running away.
for that reason, i hate myself too.

please don react to this post/ be too affected by it.
nothing has changed.

stop apologising. i will scream in your face.
i should be the one apologising to you and to myself.
i'm the unstable one.

i dunno how to say but i'm the unstable one.
i want to bear all responsibility.
i want to compensate and make up for your loss.

nite safari~~~

10:29 AM, Monday, July 28, 2008

mood:

OH FINALLY.
after 2-3 mths of contemplation, we finally set foOt on nite safari!!!
wow.
hhaa..
trip was rather fun & it feels goOd having Farhan there! lOlx.

we got staff to escort us to entrance.
we didn't have to queue for the show.
Vicki sat the tram ride free toO!

pity we only spent like 3 hrs there.
it was rush rush but we saw almost all the animals.
I saw my hyenas! argh. too bad they didn't laugh.
OHOH and i saw the world's biggest rodent!!
I wanted to see that at the Zoo but it's there..awesome coOl!
They're the size of otters, just fatter lOlx.

throughout the ride, nadya was irritating farhan with..
'oOoO more deer!" "oh dear!" "wad a deary ride" HAHA.

i felt we had the most fun @ the gift shops!
we were so fascinated by those stuff..and i admit i wanted 2 buy a few home esp the puppets and animals wooden pens. hahaha.

3 of my favourite pics:

Me & Vicki looking like excited kiddies (on our way to nite safari)..actually we're just avoiding nadya's HAND.

HA! Ousted. photoshop it.

Our group shot at the end of the day. Has a story behind it (see video lOlx.)

Cute otter @ "Creatures of the Night"

Nadya's singing + the cow= Nadow hahas.
1st time horrendous singing frm nad.

HAHA. candid video.

4:33 PM, Sunday, July 27, 2008

I'm standing on the bridge
I'm waiting in the dark

I thought that you'd be here by now
There's nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening, but there's no sound

Isn't anyone trying to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home

It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you, take me by the hand, take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are but I, I'm with you

I'm looking for a place
I'm searching for a face
Is anybody here I know
Cause nothing's going right and
Everythings a mess
And no one likes to be alone

Isn't anyone trying to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home

It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you, take me by the hand, take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are but I, I'm with you
I'm with you

SLEEP jasmine.

11:39 PM, Saturday, July 26, 2008

mood:

argh. i seriously need moreeeee sleep.
my eyes look like dey're dead in photos. i'm losing my eyes!!!
lOlx.

did E shift for the 1st time.
AND it was SUPER BUSY..
people were milling in from 5pm-8pm non stop..
i lost all my niceties & behaved like a deranged freak with "Please push" every 2 secs...
sometimes i got so tired i just wait for them to do their thing (and yes a lil displeasure on my face). ahah.

On top of scanning tix, we had to mark tix (becos we have pple coming for the 2nd ride using the same damn tix!)

it started with a stroke, then smiley faces then hearts drawn on the tix lOlx..
and Irfan kept tricking me with his stupid marker..until we had a mini war for real & i ended up drawing on his shirt lOlx!

Puga drew herself on her white uniform..
then attempted to rub it off with water & her thumb (which to her horror was already green! hahaha.)

omg. i wished everyday at work can be this.
i lost my professionalism towards the end by screaming & running after (or away) from irfan and his red marker lOlx.

i am tired.
and my heart's about to explode (too much anxiety the whole day hahas.)

today is a happy + confused + exciting day.

tiring!

1:15 AM,

mood:

i worked @ the deck again!
tiring. one word to sum it all.
it was fun but wasn't as fun as thur's.
sO at 9pm after my 2nd 1/2 break, i entered illegally (sorta) to level 2 where Emmey was working.

haha.
and OH MAN. even tho Emmey wasn't wif me at the deck, he still managed to make me go mad hahahs.
Emmey made my day!

Ronald made my last 2 hrs of shift emo-ish. even Thirul my sup could tell the sad look on my face.
but he made the journey home heartfelt =)

oh wad fun.

10:08 PM, Thursday, July 24, 2008

mood:

did deck today!
cos my parents came to sit the ride~ ahhas..
it was ALOT of teasing at the deck.
wad do i expect..
i get teased by raju every 5 mins. argh.he actually waits for the next time i fiddle with my hair so that he can luff @ me -_-'''

And emmey ah pek joined in!
went crazy until he came out of Ops room to do a jiggle HAHAs. i was stunned when he suddenly came out.
in the end i used up so much energy screaming @ them i had to steal Emmey's kaya bun lOlx.

Anyhow, the deck was filled with tons of nonsense hahas.

went to soup spoOn with raju for lunch after that.
i tried Beef Goulash this time!
hmm...it's nt WOW (velvety mushroOm had tt oompf factor) but it was nonetheless goOd.

Ratings: 7/10.

Velvety mushroOm is still my favourite!

dearest su.

6:44 PM, Wednesday, July 23, 2008

kind & understanding su.

took a video of Su's speech but audio wasn't clear. ack.
hahaha but it was the meaningful flyer ride i had (my 6th so far!)..
this time it felt like 1/2 hr wasn't enough..
up there, we each took turns to say a few words to Su, then took lotsa of pictures & she told us about her plans to take a break 1st...

and 3/4 of the time, her eyes were tearing sObx.

ALL THE BEST, dear SU!
I really will miss you...

colour me brown.

6:20 PM, Tuesday, July 22, 2008

mood:

went to turn my hair brown today.
the result is oOkie. (it's free anyway!)
and blahx blahx..yes i noe my ends are dry (cos of the perm) but i refuse 2 sip off my curls lOlx.

not obvious. but it gives the impression of natural brown~

Deep in thought & discussion as the other hairstylists explain...

The Japanese sensei giving his comments about the turn out of the model's hair.

took quite long this time: about almost 3 hours..
becos dey had to make my black hair lighter to suit the brown parts below & so on and sO forth..

just when i looked @ the hair again in the mrt (it is darkish!) but when i placed it against my mp3 pouch bag (which was the same jet black colour as my natural hair), i knew i tot too much lOlx.

argh. i just realized Su is leaving tml.
it seems so fast.
oh mans must take lotsa pics with her..
i will miss her so much cos she's my most fav sup!
from day 1, my impression of her was excellent..
she came across as a kind, gentle, funny & sometimes cheeky person.

and when she was stressed up about the merger..
my heart sank becOs i could see what a drastic change she had become.

forgot who but someone said Bob cried @ the BBQ together with a few ticketing staff..
back in those days they're like a family & they could see this family slowly torn in shreds.

it's always been said the past is past
but sometimes being our stubborn selves, some pasts are worth remembering & hopefully if there's ever any miracle, worth reliving.

kidnap video.

10:16 PM, Sunday, July 20, 2008

GLC PEOPLE. Shawn's Kidnap VIDEO!
finally.
oops. it feels like a long time ago.
ack. let's go out some day.

fireworks!

12:11 AM,

mood:

fireworks!
dey nv failed to amaze me.
this time the fireworks were bigger & bolder despite the pouring rain.
althO i really wished i could see it in the capsule.

however, i got a better treat! : to see the fireworks on 22/23rd of aug..teehee.

had waraku pasta for dinner.
i tried the squid ink pasta (yes without thinking)..
I realised. squid ink= black= lips & teeth all black! lOlx.
the whole time i couldn't even talk and whenever Ronald asked smth, i jus nodded or shook my head.
tt's when he asked alot of things hahas. idiot.

i had no idea how i looked but i can sort of guess from the guy sitting @ the next table eating the same pasta as me lOlx.
HORROR.

but the pasta was surprisingly nt bad.
i like how they cook the spaghetti. it's just soOo tender & smoOth lolx.
wished they gave more squid!

Ratings: 7.5/10 (-2.5 for the ugliness hahas.)

Squid Ink Pasta: how ugly it looks but how tasty it actually is.

R's Carbonara Waraku Style!

Spotted this @ Yakult Rainforest. What a funny illustration of us!
Drawn by the Big Boss's son *oops*

i noe it's dumb. but i sat the ride AGAIN.
cos i felt it's quite wasted walking all the way to the flyer without sitting in it.
and i was a bit grouchy when it was pouring & everything.
the look on my friends' faces were like o.O or "heh heh"
altho thirul was being drama-mama & he spied on us!
he even knew we went to yakult rainforest omg.

Ronald says he's glad we sat for the ride toO becOs tt's when i told him a couple more things & let him wad's been on my mind.
hurtful yes but i still want him to noe how i feel.

Despite liking & gone out with other pple in the past,
i tot my heart is now stone cold and able to predict alot of things.
But i realised i was still touched by his words & mannerisms at times.

the only picture he smiled!

and every time he smiles, i smile (& in my heart) too.

3 days of PM shift = fatigue.

1:39 PM, Saturday, July 19, 2008

mood:

okie. finally 1 rest day!
yes i'm not supposed 2 b complaining but i din expect tt after working mid shifts for 1 and 1/2 weeks, 3 full shifts can almost cripple me.

it feels like nothing much but somehow it drains me of my energy (perhaps cos i slept @ 3am on thurs nite hMMmm...)
had apple + aloe vera juice during my 2nd 1/2hr break & then i got myself a sOre thrOat.
argHx. i hate sore throats and i din see it coming...

come to think of it, i hadn't been unwell for 3 mths.
guess my body is showing signs of weariness but i keep thinking i can go on.
sore throats are nuttin but becOs i ran out of medicine, i had 2 see the doctor.

yes i'm a medicine dependable person.
i have medicine for everything & anything lOlx.

oh and sore throats are troublesome too.
they come as a package (one of the few things u won't want to have freebies tagging along) with fever, cough and flu.
But i'm glad i went to the doc! if not, i'll have nuttin 2 fall back on when they strike.

Now i realise how much sleep & rest i need.

It was boring & quite tiring ytd.
kinda regretted i din go for BBQ.
Then again, if i did, i'll be in bed the whole day by now- full blown sore throat.

following someone's post,
When you're sick, what do you do (other than popping pills & rest)?
1. keep it to yourself
2. tell everybody
3. tell everybody except for that one person.
4. u dun even care whether you're sick or not.

u must be mad + worried + sad that i din breathe a word.
if i dun do tt, i'll be stuck @ home & we'll both be miserable.
i chose the other alternative: to go out with you.

a post for frankie.

12:35 AM, Friday, July 18, 2008

mood:

was very shocked to see Frankie again!
i tot i was dreaming when i heard his voice outside the locker roOm.
and the last & disappointing thing he told me was he'll be leaving this sat (!) @ 7+ am (!!).
was damn pissed.

becOs i tot we still had 1 more k session & we can send him off the airpOrt.
but i guess he doesn't want to cry in front of us..when he almost did today.
so he left hastily..

Frankie if you had only known how many hearts u have touched (julie & fah was praising u)
and how many girls would fall @ ur feet (fah said to give her a call if nObody wants u).

i was always happy to see u (not cos of any special reasons) but rather how ur face will light up when u see a familiar face.
u're so laughable lOlx. (i can't forget tt damn word).
and with your "i dun care" & weird singing antics.
they're spastic but dey're treasured too.

u still owe me one:
to cross ur arms & tell the guests @ turnstile "Please push" in a dead serious tone.
if only u did that on ur last day of work!

now all i got was a stupid flyer pen that belongs to u.
while ranjani & daniel gave stuff. lOlx.
all u leave behind are pple longing & crying for u. u idiot! lOlx.

i never tot i'll get to know you so well..
when during my 1st few weeks, lim yonghan was just a smiley guy & tt's it.

And now u're frankie! (but u cannot be mine lOlx.)
and we'll chat like nobody's biz online.
but will still miss you & how u always bring smiles & laughter when we work tgt.

it feels like we can be best friends forever! our last photo.

and make me laugh like there's no tomorrow~

did after great today..
it was very cold brrr..
but @ 10+pm, we were so tickled by Imran the great moments guy lOlx & his ever changing fringe lOls!

decided not to go for BBQ after all.
hopefully i made a wise decision~

zits.

7:46 PM, Tuesday, July 15, 2008

mood:

woke up today with a bad tummyache. argh.
almost wanted to call the duty handphone num.
somehow, i took my pills (i still want 2 work after all) & fluttered off.

argh. it must be my dinner/ the popcorn..
or even the megu food. but dey seemed impossible choices.
the only thing tt was abnormal was i din take any supper!
if an empty stomach can make it sick.. lOlx.

despite taking 2 times of medication, i'm still feeling the queasiness in me now.
and stupid clarence actually ran away when he realised i had stomach flu. hmpf idiot.

anyways regretted tt i opened my big mouth & told ally i'll do level 2 -_-'''
in the end, the deck was filled with fun pple.
unfortunately, there weren't enuff to cover them for 2nd half hr breaks soO poOr jw stayed back for a couple more hours~

i'm still wondering whether i shld go for BBQ after all the hoOha.
i'll rather go with the majority but then no one seemed 2 b able to give confirmed replies!
the only pple that i noe are going are perhaps lee wei ranjani & emmey. -_-'''

and i still need 2 change shift if i want to attend..double zZZ.

hellboy 2.

11:37 PM, Monday, July 14, 2008

mood:

work was nuttin much today cos there weren't much events.
but i was glad i get 2 work wif frankie for the last 20 mins.
i can't believe i won't see him ever again.
but i wasn't sad perhaps cOs he din work for like a week & i got used to it!

went to meet Ronald @ Somerset
Hell boy 2 yays!
he bluffed me cos i really tot his class ended late but he went home 2 change but he din want to be toO fickle-minded i guess~
lolx like tt also can.

Hellboy 2 was quite Okie..it's got lotsa mythical creatures & actions + violence & funny lines..haha. the movie was definitely funnier than the 1st.
altho i admit the plot was super predictable lOlx.

i lOve elves!!! dey're so deadly coOl.
Ratings: 3.5/5

and he smiled alot today.
this is the 1st time i see act coOl act daO smile so much lOlx.

i dunno why it looks so blue...if it's my phone nt like tt le lOlx!

i admit i'm being my mean self..
but hey! i'm a meanie and i unintentionally hurt pple sometimes.ack.

quite a few.

12:53 AM, Sunday, July 13, 2008

mood:

attended my mum's company's DnD.
it was quite goOd...hahas Kumar came and did her comedy act as well.
omg luff like siao.
however, my mum was pretty slow her face was -_-? the whole time. hahas.

quite a few things were said today..
and quite a few things ran through my mind quite a few times.
i want to be a serious & mature person.
like seriously serious. ok not making much sense. hahas.

i promise to be less pessimistic.
ok i'm nt that pessimistic i admit, just erm thinking more realistically?
but now i feel like i can dream again, then sometimes i get pulled back and then someone said "WAKE UP".
not like it happens now but it's been like this for quite a few years of my life~

it's kinda silly actually.
i wonder why have i become like this?
i dun think i'm disillusioned...perhaps more cautious in the choices i make but it makes it seem like i disbelieve & doubt everything.

argh.
this is such a weird post. most of you must be clueless but this is kinda wad i want to say~

this is not a pessimistic post.
i'm not emo!!!
i still smile~

mod planning nerve wrecking!

4:50 PM, Friday, July 11, 2008

mood:

module planning was seriously a drag.
was disappointed din get to take mods tt i want (perhaps until next sem)..
and only have 3 level 2000 left to fulfill haiZ.

wadeva it is, i get my timetables sorted out!
so long as every bid & ballot goes well~

Modules most prob taking:
` Soci of Food (level 2000)
` Soci Research Mtds (compulsory)
` Childhood & Youth/ Mass Media & Culture (level 2000)
` Singapore Film: Performance of Identity (SS mod)
` Korean Level 1

Left with such choices. zZz.
was devastated when i din see the tourism mod/ gender mod arghhhh
3/5 here are known to be time consuming..esp the last 2?
but i stopped myself frm taking any level 3000 mod this coming sem.
hope i made the wise choice!

found this!
lOlx.

Yoyo Cici's Ice Kachang Clip

dim sum @ Victor's Kitchen

10:24 PM, Thursday, July 10, 2008

mood:

alrites today met Ronald after finish work today. had to WAIT VERY long cos he went to visit his uncle~
Ate blueberry crumble @ Han's & it feels as if i've eaten a whale! lOlx.
my tummy is shrinking zZzz..main highlight of the day was actually Dim Sum.

Met up wif anita afterwards for dinner~
the dim sums are nt bad..just tt i find the comments a little too overrated lOlx.
Overall their food had quite alot of msg which explains my dehydration heh.
We were @ Macdonalds and that ws a quick shot. he looks damn goOfy lOlx.
Wala porridge. the name Wala reminds me of those resort beach scenery hahas.
Actually just cuttlefish, chicken, century egg.
Ratings: 6/10 i love congee but i find this jus a tad too bland.
Scallop + Sausage Carrot Cake. Din realise the ingredients but the sauce was not bad!
Ratings: 7/10
Prawn Chee Cheong Fun. Ok this is my favourite dish out of all haha cos i love the sauce/ 'chap'..it's like the sauce restaurants use for steamed sea bass..!! prawns were juicy & succulent.
Ratings: 7.5/10
Queen's Siew Mai. Ok lar. At least there's freshness of the meat~
Ratings: 6/10

Victor's Har Gow. ermmmss...skin a bit too thick but love the prawns (all their prawn dishes are nt bad)
Ratings: 6/10
Char Siew Bao was disappointing & i love char siew bao the most in dim sums ack.
Ratings: 5.5/10
Their famous Custard Bun. This is the one Ronald was so afraid i'll whack him if it sucks. Not too bad but seriously too overrated for being best dish tho. Refreshing factor: there's egg yolk inside!
Ratings: 6.5/10 but i'm nt really a fan of custard buns.

Finally. Double boiled milk with ginger.
Wanted to try to compare this with the one I had @ Macau.
But it's totally different..this is more eggy & gingy in flavour..Macau's 1 has a rich creamy milky taste.
Macau's 1 win hands down. hehe..but this is quite goOd toO. At least the ginger taste wasn't so empowering~

Ratings: 6.5/10

Had Black Sesame ice cream @ Bugis..wheEEeeeee!
It taste soO goOd like 8/10 hahas..from Uzumaki (if i'm nt wrong).
I need to wait till next yr before i can try the Sakura flavour~

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